Saturday, October 20, 2012

Gratitude Blog 4 (2012)


             I started writing gratitude blog in 2006 and I somehow made it a yearly "panata" until 2008.  I don't know what exactly happened and why I stopped writing, but today I just woke up needing and wanting to express how thankful I am this year.  This usually is a yearender thing but I decided to write it anyway, let's just say a post-birthday gratitude blog since I usually start and end my “year” on my birthdays.

Why am I doing this?  I just thought I don't say thank you too often to friends who have been good to me.  The more I pay gratitude, the more good things I attract and they come in so many unexpected ways.  Not that it's the main reason why I'm doing this, it's just that life has been good to me this year more than I have expected it to be.

            Looking back, the start of my year was a bit unpleasant but as it went, it became better and better.  I got to enjoy a lot of things (most of it were unexpected blessings) and I met new people who are now becoming dear friends, additional to my long list already. 

In the previous gratitude blogs, I have mentioned friends who have done extra-special things to me (most of them are unaware that they have that effect) so i am making them informed through this. I don't intend to offend other friends who are not mentioned here.  In fact, I really appreciate friends who are part of my life active or not, but let's just say i would like to mention those who are in the "honor list" kung sa commencement exercises pa.  Naa man jud nay special awards and citations. :)

Para walay issue sa billing, gi-alphabetical order nako ni ug gi-bisglish ug taglish for some kay basin d ninyo kaayo ma feel kung English tanan.  Gusto jud nako kanang i-feel jud ninyo ni. Hahaha

Lorna – thanks mam lorns for being a mother and a friend to me.  idol jud tika sa kakugi to make lessons and activities.  Ginasalo pa jud ko nimo pirmi sa mga d nako mahimo. Don't worry, mahuman lang ko aning akong masteral2x (murag tininuud raba. Hahaha), I will make it up to you (d lang ko magpromise. Hahaha).  Bitaw mam lorns, thank you for spoiling me. inahan jud kaayo ka nako sa school.

Marifel and John (the couple) - thanks for being there during those trying times.  your prayers and words of encouragements were "lifters".  mao jud tingali ako ang gigamit ni Lord para magmeet mo kay you are two powerful prayer partners. thanks for the prayers and for continually praying for me.  last na jud mo pasuhan nako as maid of honor ha. d na jud ko ani nga role kung di lang jud kamo. hahaha thanks to both of you and more blessings for your marriage.

Mayen – thanks for always being there especially during my palpak (PANAGSA) moments.  You are my silent listener and supporter but you never fail to give me a poke when I need one.  In short, hawud kaayo ka mangdukol kung kinahanglan na.  You don’t judge my decisions but you tell it straight to my face when you think it’s not the right thing to do.  thank you too for keeping up with me even if sometimes naa koy kalabaran and you know what I mean by the kalabaran.  Hahaha!  Thank you jud.  I just can’t thank you enough for just being there.

Murphy teh kahit lagi mo kong pinaplastik, eh love mo pa rin ako dama ko yun kaya love din kita noh. Thanks talaga teh kahit pasaway ako at lagi kang nagrereklamo at nauubos ang milyones mo pag nagkakasama tayo, gumagasta ka pa din naman. Hahahaha seryoso teh, thanks talaga sa friendship kahit dito na ako sa Davao, d pa rin kayo nagbago. Next year uli ha? Mag-ipon ka na ng milyones mo at alam mo na mapapagastos ka na naman. hahahha

Myra – my best sister.  I just couldn't imagine life without you.  Thanks for being my lil sister and big sister at the same time.  you know my indecisiveness and it just feels good to think that you have reached a certain maturity wherein you can share to me what you think and how you want me to experience what you are experiencing now.  Don't worry, I may be as slow as a turtle but I am working on my pace.  Kabalo naman ka late bloomer ko so dawata na jud na kay wa kay laing choice kay im your only sister. hahaha!  Don't worry, I'll get there one day :)

Peter – you're one kind of a friend and you should know that.  Thank you for being thoughtful and sweet.  You are like a daily journal to me.  It just feels good to have someone i can communicate with, let my hair down and just share how my days went.  You're like a daily therapy.  Thank you!

Robert M. Gomez– my professor, my friend and my crush[ed] (3 in 1. murag kape lang. hahaha)  yes apil ka!  Kaswerte jud nimu naaapil ka this year. Hahaha!

seriously, you just don't know how much i appreciated those times that you made me laugh katong gasugod pa lang tag kaamigo (now you know). i was on my recovery stage when we were chatting almost everday and somehow you were a diversion for me.  although at some point nakathink ko na naa jud kay thing para naku d lang jud ka muamin (hahahahaha), pero regardless, your being there to listen when i had to rant about things and the times na you just made me laugh is appreciated. pasalamat lang pud ko kay Lord na nagmeet ta karon na lifetime maskin labad ka. if there is a next unya mag meet gihapon ta, unta mas lingaw pa, kanang lingaw to my advantage (hahahaha). bitaw ui sersyoso, thanks for the friendship. Isa siguro ka sa mga reasons or purpose ni Lord nganu nag SPED ko to understand myself better kay naa pud kay ADHD mao tingali lahi pud ang level sa atong connection. Hahaha

Sheena gang thanks for being there too especially tong time na recovery stage pa and for encouraging me to work out seriously.  It surely helped me a lot as a therapy.  Kung wala tingali ko nagboxing, wa nako napagawas akong mga kalagot.  I would have been violent in other things may gani nagresort ko into boxing.  You’ve saved me from going to jail ug na-save pud nimo imong sarili na magbisita sa city jail. Hahaha! thanks for the chats (both serious and not) and for being my fashion consultant/icon /bazaar love triangle buddy. Hahaha!  consistent pud ka sa akong gratitude blogs noh even sa myspace pa, kabantay ka? Hahaha

Trixie – bizzzzzzz iba ka talaga!  Ikaw talaga ang kaibigan kong kasing loka2x ko. It always feels good to spend time with you.  Iba talaga level din ng friendship natin. if we get to spend time together it's always a quality time.  thanks for your generosity and thoughtfulness.  Gusto mo kung anong meron ka, meron din ako. Kaya lang pano kaya ako magkaka LV? Hahahaha biz, I really treasure you as a friend.  Thanks for treating me like a sister. Buti na nga lang ganun kasi kung meron ka sigurong kapatid na babae, pano na ako? Hahahaha  Again, thanks thanks!  Next year uli.

Xenia -  It  is somehow a bit tough year for our friendship but I just want to thank you for being there.  For listening, for the advices, for the times na I just needed someone to pour some things out, salamat.  Whatever happened (gipast tense jud nako ha? hehe), you have to know xen na you're one of the friends that I really value in the real sense.  Basta, thank you jud kaayo.  I may not always tell you this but deep inside I am really grateful na naa ka sa akoang layp ;-)

Again, thanks thanks.  Next year na pud ha? BANTAY! hahahahaha




            

gratitude blog 3 (2008)


A year is about to end.  Wow! Time flies so quickly and now it's time for me to write again my yearly vow, the gratitude blog that I started out three years ago.

Looking back to the year that's about to go, I can say it's overall beautiful and it gave me many new learning experiences that I'm going to be bringing with me in the coming year.  This year, I've built stronger and deeper friendships, I've enjoyed outing and good times with good friends, I've kept old friends and gained new ones, I've met people who just stopped by and just went their way, I've also met people who I thought would stay and I wanted to keep in my life but I realized I needed to let go, I felt cared for but I needed to move on and I've moved forward with a whole and hopeful heart still, my family are still my source of inspiration, I have a good job, my best friend  still makes me feel that I'm the most comforting person in the world for her and a lot more little things, almost insignificant things that I'm thankful for.  All of those, good things and the "not so good  things" that happened this year  makes me still say that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL and I'm grateful.
Now, I just want to mention my real friends who are also here in my space who have made extra significance in my life this year. Well, I would sound a little melodramatic here but please bear with me. This is my blog anyway (LOL).

S - My Leo-Libra team mate.  Thanks for the "laughs."  It's really fun.  We sure made a good connection this year or I should say a deeper one.  Thank you also for those "reflective" times.  We sure have grown in our quest for self-discovery and self-improvement and I hope we will continue to do it next year and the years to come. I sure love sharing good talks and fun talks with you and all sorts of  "sharing" including our S****** tendencies. We really are one of a kind (hahahahaha).  Thank you for sharing things and for listening at the same time.  It's really a pleasure to "work" with you in our business venture (hahahahaha) and I'm hoping for bigger and fuller blasts in the years to come [ including the PUHON :-)) ] we wont stop, right?  That's the way it is!

Dianne - Gang thanks for the talks.  It's fun and at the same time we often have something to learn from each other when we chitchat.  I've learned a lot from you too.  It's Libra to Libra talk and it's always good and well-balanced thoughts. magkarga jud kog bangko for us.  Hope to have that full of sense chitchat still even if you're there na.

Mayen – I'm just thankful for the many years of friendship and this year for the times that I had less files and you shared with me the clips.  It's really a big help, sa bisaya dako kaayog tabang sa ako. Thanks kaayo jud. walay bonus gikan kang bosing? hahaha

Myra - Well, I'm just thankful that you are my sister even if I've got no choice. Hahahahaha!  Life would be a bit boring kung walay samukan sa life nako. hahahaha

To Ronelo, Beth, Bryan, Mr. and Mrs. Donlon, ryan marie, dynnes, griffin,frances, thesa, fan-man, anthony, lori, phil, tiffany, orxia, lishang, dewayne, irene - thank you for your hi's, hello's, how are you's, comments and messages. Thanks for not being a stranger.  It's always nice to hear from you every now and then.   I haven't met some of you in person but who knows, we will meet one day.  It would be nice.

And to some other friends here who are still "strangers" (hehe) thank you also.  Hope next year you won't be anymore.

So to all my friends, once again many thanks!  Cheers to the New Year and good life ahead.

the bottom line is that four-letter word

July 16, 2008

i recently talked to somone whom i haven't talked for some time and during our short conversation, he said he is looking for "that" someone again. it struck me because he ended up his second marriage just a few years ago and now he is looking for "that" someone again and hoping he gets married for the third and last time if he finds the "right" person.  his story is not new anymore, right? in fact, i have some friends who have gone through relationships and even marriage that didn't work out but after some time, here they are again looking for "that" someone and hoping to meet "that" someone for the second time and some for the nth time. im not an expert on romance and relationships but based on the people i've met who have been there and done that, i can say most of us humans have that "thing" in us who want to love and be loved in return except for those who are happy being alone and choose to be alone and get satisfaction from other things, but most of the people i know including myself have that desire to really end up with "that" someone. this may sound mushy, cheesy and even corny to some but i believe and i have observed that most of us really long for "that" someone to share love and life with that's why even if some of us go through several mismatches, heartaches and broken relationships, most people i know are still not giving up on the thought that one day they will end up with the "right" person.

for me (i may be right and i may be wrong but this is my opinion anyway), we are made to love and be loved. i think this is more of human nature and innate in each one of us that there is really that "thing" inside that will never stop believing and hoping that one day we will be with "that" person that our hearts have been longing for. some are just lucky enough to find their perfect match early in their lives and some of us need time and will experience several mismatches before we finally meet our perfect match and still the bottom line of it all boils down to one word - LOVE.

Sheena's comment: Indeed, Ms Jones, it all boils down to love. Just like in one of my favorite romantic movies Crazy/Beautiful---> "there are millions of people out there but in the end it all comes down to one." Nice post Gang. I have been through failed relationships too, but I come out learned and better. Love must all be worth it.

a SUNny day SUNday thought

July 14, 2008


today is a sunny day sunday (i can see clearly now the rain is gone. la la la la hahaha!) and im just here at home relaxing and makes me think about how good life still is in spite of all the unpleasant things going around here, there and everywhere. sometimes watching news on tv or reading things on the internet is just saddening but i guess you have to have that "inner peace" in your heart so you will still be able to think positively that sooner or later good things will still come your way. of course, just like anyone else, there are days that i feel like "i woke up on the wrong side of the bed" (what i do? i go back to bed, turn to the right side then wake up from there and i feel good again. hahaha!) seriously now, when i feel like having a bad day, i try my best to lean on the head and not the tail side of the coin and being positive about things should be an everyday habit (that's what im trying to do and i hope i will be good at it) as sometimes negative thoughts flash in my mind so i try to brush them off as much as i can as i become aware of it coz i know it won't do me any good and worse, i might get wrinkles. im still "young". i don't need them. hahaha!

i found a nice quotable quote today:
"When you're down on the swing, don't feel bad. Know that the swing will change and things will get better. There are good times coming - think of them."

and i better think of good times coming. sometimes some really nice encouraging words is all i need to have that sunny day just like today. 

"high on sweet afternoon"

April 25, 2008


i went to a mall this afternoon to buy a gift for a friend's son who is celebrating his birthday this sunday. i just thought of dropping by at the grocery to buy a few things but while i was lining up to pay for my purchases, i saw an ice cream booth with promo for a scoop. my "craving center" right away signaled me that i have to have one scoop. hehe! so i went to the booth and i was delighted to see one of my favorite ice cream flavors, the strawberries and cream. hmmm! yummy! i got not only one scoop but two to satisfy my craving. besides, i deserve some good treat for myself, so i did. also, when i was about to go out of the grocery, a promo lady stopped by my front and offered me some free samples of a chocolate bar and i got one. haha! i never expected i could give myself a sweet treat this afternoon.

oh! natural highs! simple things that give me a high after-feeling.

these are just little things that give me natural high. they may be simple, insignificant and too ordinary but sometimes these little things can give me a sweet smile on my face and a high feeling of contentment at the end of the day.

comfort pillow 3

April 22, 2008


(note: this comfort pillow experience is dedicated to a special comfort pillow that i have adding to the series of the comfort pillow blogs i did previously. see archive blogs for more.)

i have had some comfort pillow experiences with someone dear to me. at some point in our lives, we became each other's comfort pillow. it was a give and take comfort pillow-ing that we do for each other and and it's just heartwarming to know that despite some testing that we are both going through, we never stopped being the comfort pillow that we are for each other. more than anything else, it's the bond that we share that keeps us believing in each other and holding on to being each other's comfort pillow.  in my heart, he will always be one of my comfort pillows and i will be his that's for sure coz i know how much i care for this person and i value the things that we shared so i will always be there for him no matter what.

Sheena's comment:  Hmmm, very deep but it pretty much says everything Gor. :-) but may I remind you there are still soooo many pillows out there that need to be comforted. Ahahaha! kidding... Lets go pillow hunting! Kidding again...

yes, no or wait

April 18, 2008


i have always believe in the power of prayer and when we pray, god answers prayer in three ways. yes, no and wait. i have known this since i was little in church but as i grow up things become so complicated and sometimes i only want god to say yes to all my prayers. when god answers no or wait, i get disappointed and become impatient. i say to god when i pray that "your will be done lord" but sometimes i realize, it's more of me saying "my will be done lord" or "you should do this and do that lord" i realize im not even praying...im demanding. sometimes i question why things happen when i prayed for something else and it doesn't happen but i guess i have to learn to let god do his thing coz when i do mine, i always end up getting disappointed and hurt. i often forget that prayers should be talking to god and telling him to work according to his ways, not mine. of course, i also believe in the saying "do your best and god will take care of the rest" so some prayers need personal actions too with god's guidance still.

i have prayed for some things but some things are just not the way i prayed it would be or it might just be the "wait" answer. i guess i have to wait a bit more and see what his answers will be.

one thing is for sure, god has done many things in my life and is doing more. i guess i will just continue to pray and believe that god answers prayers in yes, no and wait and learn to accept and be happy whatever his answers will be.  it may not always the way i want it to be but i know god has his ways and it's all for my best.

on being and staying positive

March 11, 2008


positive, positive, positive.... always be positive... our mindset should be this way.... positive.

well, i am trying my best to be positive in all things but i must admit that sometimes i think of negative thoughts, which makes me feel bad every time i do this. it is really true that when you think negative, it wouldn't do anything good. when you have negative thoughts in your mind you will end up worrying and not feeling good about yourself, about others and about life in general.
what makes negative thoughts flash in my mind is the past negative experiences mostly not mine but from experiences of other people that i hear or read and when i do, i sometimes end up fearing the fear of the unknown.  in as much as i want to just shrug it off of my mind but i dont want to be hypocrite and say i dont get affected when i hear sad and bad stories of other people but when i entertain these negative thoughts, at the end of the day, i just feel bad so it is really not good as it is.

i am still in the process of being and staying positive coz sometimes i still think of negative thoughts but i guess it's a process to learn from and get over with. i know in time my thoughts will only entertain positive thoughts and i know the outcome will be what i hope things would be for my life in general and that is to be happy and stay happy.

as it is a basic rule, what you sow is what you reap. if you think positive you will sow positive. just like love begets love. if you give love, you will receive love so i better stick with positive thoughts and giving out love and letting it come and of course on being and staying positive. 

comfort pillow 2

February 13, 2008


i previously wrote a blog about comfort pillow last december 29, 2007. now, it's february 12, 2008 and i'm writing another "comfort pillow" experience.

today is one of those "bad days" for me. it was gloomy both literally and emotionally.  there are just so many things in my mind and i guess the biggest part of it is not having lots of workload lately. i earn based on files i get and due to the snowstorm, my files are few so it means less earning but i love my job and i am overall happy with it.  it's like any other jobs i guess, there are good days and bad days but i can say that i have more good days than bad days for which im thankful for.  today was just one of those few bad days, which turned out good at the end of it.

my day started a bit bad but i owe someone a lot for making my day lighter and brighter. he was there when i needed an "absorber" and i really appreciate him just listening, showing me how much he cares and being there for me when i needed someone today to just express how i feel and i felt so comfortable telling him what i feel. i couldn't thank him enough for lifting my spirits today.

days may not always be good but it's good to know that i have some people in my life whom i know i can always find comfort with when i needed a comfort pillow to bury my face with. again, having his "presence" today was like putting my head on a soft and comfy pillow that as soon as i rest my head on it,  i will feel better.

again, at the end of the day today ........... i felt better.

Gratitude Blog 2 (2007)


December 31, 2007


i started to write gratitude blog last year in friendster and i have decided to make it a yearly habit so this is my gratitude blog for this year.

last year, i have listed some names of the people whom i thanked for being extra good to me.  this year, as much as i want to list all of you,i can't coz i have a very long list, so ill make it general instead.

well, i have met many people this year both in person and on the internet. some of you were not real, some of you i have yet to discover if you are real and some of you are trutfully real and for those who are real... i thank you most.  some became my good friends and some just dropped by and passed and some i have to let go for some reasons i know i should. but whatever you are, i still thank you for being a part of my life this year. all of you have become a part of my life. may you have been good or not, still i learned from you, so thank you. you spiced up my life this year.

for those i became friends with and communicate with, thank you for your time and thoughts. the notes you send every now and then, the ideas you share or the comments that you give me is appreciated more and more. all of the little things that you do for me is appreciated. i hope to keep the friendship with you not only this year but in the years to come.

so, to all of you who have been part of my life this year, i wish you good life ahead and better things to come.

cheers to good life and love!

again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you very much!

Happy New Year and God Bless everyone!

comfort pillow 1

December 30, 2007


Today, i finished with work earlier than usual.  i didn't want to come home early because it's a saturday and i usually play badminton with friends but since everyone is busy preparing for the post Christmas rush or New Year's Eve celebration, play was canceled and i had nothing to do on a saturday late afternoon. i was thinking of watching dvd but i really wanted a company, just someone to pass the hours with before going home. today, is one of those days that i just wanted a company. there are times that i want to be alone but today i wanted someone to spend the day with or at least some hours of the day with but no one's available. hmmmm..... got me thinking....

i remembered my friend mitch.  i tried calling her to greet her and her husband on their 3rdwedding anniversary. i didn't know that her husband was out of town but my timing was good or i should say, my desire lead me to the right person! voila! she invited me to celebrate with her since her hubby, who is also a good friend of mine, is not around. wow! it was a wish granted. thanks heavens! i needed a someone to spend the day with and there she was! i wanted to have company and i really did!

friends are friends. we may define it relatively depending on the level of friendship we have with each person, but some friends are "comfort pillows" just like mitch was today. i needed someone just to be with and i felt so comfortable with her company. we didn't do extraordinary thing today.  we just ate pizza and went to the parlor for her pedicure but just the thought that she was there when i needed someone to spend the day with is like putting my head on a soft and comfy pillow that as soon as i rest my head on it,  i will feel better.

at the end of the day today ........... i felt better.